I'm not the Mama, I'm just the Stork!

I have read and researched so much on IVF and going through this process really makes you see what some families have to go through...it can be exhausting, emotional, and disappointing. I am feeling positive that things will work this time around. We have a surrogate  FB support group and it has been great to get on there and read about other journeys. Everyone is so different and I have to keep reminding myself of that.  As soon as I let go of the situation I get a call or email. :)  Thursday 10/18 Blaise and the kids took me to dinner for an early birthday and I got a call from Dr. D. He said that we need to be more flexible for transfer dates next time and if I am ready earlier at lining checks then we go ahead and do transfer the next week. He seemed confident that this next round will work. I finished out my Provera and then waited for a period to come. I'm always on schedule and it came on 10/22. My nurse from San Diego emailed us with new tentative dates and this is where

It's been a long week. I started the Provera 10 day pills on Thursday and have 2 more to take. Then it's hoping for a period to start soon after the last pill so we can get out tentative plan and dates again for round 2. This whole process is HURRY UP AND WAIT. I am so ready and excited to do this and each setback makes it that much longer. I have to keep reminding myself to chill and remember if something comes up it was for a reason. My wonderful IPs send me a box full of yummy chocolates, a cute shirt, and a beautiful card. This box couldn't have come on a better day. It made me feel so special and now I have plenty of snacks to eat while I wait. ;)  On Tuesday 10/16 - the day we were scheduled to transfer the IPs had a Skype call with our Dr. He was suppose to call me right after but never did. The IPs told me that from his call he thought I was on the meds too long and said that we need to be more  flexible next time in terms of transfer dates (he said the one-we

Yesterday, I had my final lining check and blood work before the transfer! The nurse said I won the nicest lining of the week! The lining is beautiful, super fluffy, and measuring a 14!!!!  Unfortunately, after feeling so good all day we ended the night in disappointment. Our Nurse from the San Diego clinic emailed us and said, " unfortunately, we are not emailing with good news, while the lining has reached 14mm, the lining is not looking optimal for your embryo transfer.  Dr. Daneshmand would like to cancel the cycle at this time and retry with Jenna's next menstrual period." Reading this email made me feel so deflated and of course, I had a lot of questions. I responded with some of my questions and she got right back with me...mainly wanted to see why it was canceled and what our new timeline would look like. She still didn't get into details of why it wasn't optimal but said Dr. D would schedule a call with us to go over that. She also said they are very

A lot has happened in the last 12 days! I got my period and went to my first baseline check on 9/25. The appointment was quick and easy. I had a vaginal ultrasound and blood work but had to wait until later in the day to find out the results. The nurse just told me everything looked good and quiet. I got an email from the San Diego Clinic around 5pm saying my lining was 7mm and I was good to add estrogen (2 tablets at night and 2 in the morning) I thought they were looking for a thin lining but she said since I was only day 2 of my cycle I would have time to still thin out and could go ahead and start the meds. This past weekend I had some pretty bad headaches and also a little cramping. I just tried to stay busy and take some time to relax to keep my mind off it. I also drank some pomegranate juice here and there but didn't really do anything else much different. I've been worried my lining may still be thin since I was finishing my period throughout the week. They want at